Once a week, every week, for 52 weeks
Ok - so it's already proven I'm a little bit hopeless at 'commitment'. This year was supposed to be my year of change. The year I stuck to my promises to myself. The year I was going to finish off with a big, huge Yay, Me.
I wanted to stick to the portrait a week, every week. For me. I wanted to stick to a sensible eating plan. For me. I wanted to get earlier nights. For me. I wanted to blog. For me. I just wanted to prove to myself that I could finish what I start... for... me.
I'm not sure if being a Mum - a working Mum (which is really what every Mum should be classed as anyway) - I'm not sure whether or not being a Mum automatically means we self sabotage. I know I do. I have a huge guilt issue - everything makes me feel guilty. I need to believe that it's ok to look after myself, along with looking after everyone else. It is ok to just be.
I've just come back from our first ever real family holiday. And the best thing was the family time we spent together. It gave us all a chance to recharge our batteries, talk, laugh, dance, eat, play - adults and kids - together. I didn't need to 'look after' everyone. I just enjoyed them.
Since I've been back, I've caught up a little with my pic a week - and realised that there is only one week I've missed. One week isn't enough for me to say, that's it, failed again. So here I am. There will be a little overload of the last few weeks of pics coming now. I'm not going to promise that I will be here each week. But I am going to promise that I will try. And that's good enough for me.
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Jessica - after years of appliances, braces and fortnightly dentist and orthodontist visits, the braces are finally OFF! |